sickopathical

Woohoo, past few days have just been really crazy for me, hopefully i don’t die from exhaustion and manage to submit my website in time, still chionging right now, quite glad that christine and peixin are skipping classes so i won’t feel so bad about not going and also so that i won’t be alone in classes… Progress has been slow but i still have two days so i’ve got to make it count!

Anyway, i was really touched cuz when i totally fell sick there were so many people giving me advice on how to take care of myself and what i should eat and what i shouldn’t and what not. NOT that i don’t know how to take care of myself lah… haha but it was nice to see that others are concerned about you. Like lijin totally scolded me for trying to steal a piece of chicken from nic lah… *warm feelings* hahaha, i’m sorry for calling her a slut. 😀 hahaha… Well and the night before i was feeling the sickness coming along already but i was still chionging work till late, shalyn told me to drink water and sleep, of course which i ignored thinking that it’d be nothing… LOL HOW I KNOW? flu, cold, sorethroat… everything lah, like super combo totally just piak leh… And of course now a day after i’m feeling just a little bit iffy and it’s evolved into a cough… how long moreeeee do i have to eat been hoon soup?!

How did i get sick in the first place? haha this is a long story, and i goes wayyyyy back into last friday… Cuz we had foosball on saturday so friday we decided to have a stayover, and i don’t know what possessed all of them but at the last minute a bottle of bacardi appeared on the table and things weren’t so innocent anymore… hahaha, anyway yea we had a little drinking session, sholleh and wyncy passed cuz one is allergic and one is muslim DUH. Anyway amos, betty and mallory totally got drunk lah, chrystal was knocked out so she wasn’t much trouble… but we all know how irritating amos and mal can get when they’re hyper, now they’re hyper AND drunk… haha good game… 😀 hahaha i think sholleh enjoyed playing father to them… hahaha betty is ultra funny when she’s drunk, totally have to upload the videos to show man, i mean it’s really hilarious, but i think that she’d probably sue me because she’s miss image, must maintain maintain… hahaha…

Okay so after drinking nite, i didn’t sleep because… we had to calm the little dweebs down before they raped each other… Haha no lah, sholleh did quite well making them go to sleep after all… I had to carry amos off at one point though cuz he was just all over the place… hahaha and i think he accidentally whacked mal’s boob or something… YUP anyway i didn’t sleep and in the morning we just all headed down to school, haha remember i had alcohol running through my veins and i didn’t sleep a wink… Anyway foosball was fun because we kept bathing in school and the school showers are BLOODY cold but it’s BLOODY shiok because since it’s BLOODY cold after that you feel BLOODY fresh… haha betty bathes like a boy, she’s really fast, and sholleh comes out of the toilet without his pants on… haha that’s right, anyway, betty, shol and i hung out abit while the rest were konked out… then whilst we were setting up… a great disaster occurred… i started playing soccer… ok ok when i told my brother i played soccer he put his hand on my forehead and asked if i was alright… you see I NEVER PLAY SOCCER. Haha, it’s just not in me but i don’t know why on saturday i was so INTO it lah, like after 18 years i finally see why some people get that rush when they’re on the ball… Okay anyway that aside, i got so into it i played BEFORE the games started and DURING the games and played like dunno how many umpteen games… after that i think my legs never felt so tired ever before, it was a disaster… like i could barely walk cuz i was so freakin’ tired hahaha…

AS IF RUNNING AROUND LIKE A MAD CHICKEN ALL DAY WASN’T ENOUGH. We went to chomp chomp for dinner… and had a whole load of seafood… not good not good .. the next day was auntie’s big treat so we went and had a whole ten course dinner of heaty and crazily unhealthy oily food… GG liao loh… hahaha so now i have the deadly combination and it’s seriously freaking painful… hahaha…

Okay jam and hop just got cancelled, hahaha i’m sitting here right now in the meeting typing this because i need to quickly release so that i’ll still be able to maintain a cool front… hahaha EH it’s actually not such big a deal because at least now i have more time to plan, you see the word that melvin used was “CANCELLED” not “POSTPONED” haha so i guess maybe… shouldn’t get my hopes too up… hahaha well, i know i did my best and really chionged, but it means i should have gone home earlier to sleep yesterday too.. LOL i totally had myself prepared already lah, it’s alright… haha…

Okay this means that i can chiong 100% for my submission and after that i can relax and have fun, haha Syara’s party coming up… I’m in the party main comm yo! hahaha okay i kinda forced syara to form that hahaha but it’s gonna be fun… i hope… hahaha… Meeting is really boring right now and melvin started off really really black faced like… !@#$%^&*… hahaha, but oh well, it’s not like he’s always on time… Haha… 😀 So i didn’t take it too seriously either… haha…

My throat is going to come out… haha i cannot take it… I wish i was a sub comm…

i wish i wasn’t in the DOC main comm because i know i’ll regret not going for FOC…

why must vani want it her way? i don’t like being pushed into a corner, i still want to go for FOC because somehow it’s one of the best things that happened to me in TP… Okay resolves to talk to her about it…

Melvin just told us the reason for jam and hop… ABOUT TIME haha just say loh…He just now say “cancelled” only i was quite unhappy that there was no like valid reason… hahaha unfounded causes la, Mr. M is a tweep… hahaha

Okay hopes for jam and hop just went floating into the air… hahaha it’s very uncertain because… he didn’t say whether we’re still going to have it in the future or not leh… haiz, hahaha…

ANYWAY just random thoughts that are running through my head even as i’m sitting in this meeting, HOPE I CAN FINISH MY SUBMISSION BY TONIGHT! 😀

cheers,
izak

clazziquack

harlo, hahaha, i have survived, thanks for all the concern and love that i received during the past two weeks, it’s been really helpful… anyway past two weeks were just great, i learnt alot and had great fun 😀 haha

okay i took a cab down to school just to open up the lounge, the taxi-king strikes again, hahah now i owe myself 16.10 and how am i going to repay myself? haha probably going to starve for the next five days or something. Haha this is one of the major reasons why i am never able to save money. Haha curse taxi’s… haha i was walking out of my estate when this really cool blue car with a flashing green light on the top just happened to drive in lah, IMPULSE IMPULSE… haha plus i was late already so i just took it luh, haha… there’s just something about taking taxis, time passing so much more slowly because the taxi travels so much more faster than a bus… plus you can see the entire world outside burning cuz it’s so damn hot and the sun is so damn bright but you’re in this very nice leather-seated air-conditioned environment of pure bliss and luxury… okay, but it helps if you get a nice taxi-uncle also lah…

last week i was on the cab to school cuz i was late… then i scrambled onto a cab, was on the phone with yoko for awhile i think but she was talking about some jibberish i think so i just hung it on her… i can’t remember the details it was abit fuzzy… hahaha oh i think she was bloody late that day… haha anyway i was on the cab and the uncle kept trying to strike up conversations lah, and like wtf he couldn’t speak properly just kept mumbling some weirdo mumbo jumbo (like amos) and it was DISGUSTING because he kept expecting me to reply and kept saying “hor?” so it’ll be like “!@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@, hor?” … hahaha arghh agony, at first i would try to reply but eventually i gave up… haha and he ended up singing to himself instead… haha..

amos is going to break my slippers, i swear… hahaha his foot is like a six GIANT and my foot is like a size TINY… 😦 hahaha i mean even for a tall person i have small small feet, which is the reason why i cannot rollerblade and fall down like 91% of the time… Amos has a plot to steal my slippers, he’s wearing my slippers now and promises to buy a new pair later but he’s not going to, i swear he’s going to not buy then later he’s going to whine and ask me to lend him the slippers the entire polyforum… hahaha ok i’m going to bite his brains out now.. byeee

cheers,
izak

i lick my wounds

i haven’t ever cried. i don’t cry, but today it was there, i felt it, the voice quavering, heart thumping, eye-wetting experience. It’s under most unfortunate circumstances, but i today i learnt more things in a car ride than i have ever had in a lifetime of living under the same roof as my parents.

i’d made up my mind never to ask them to lend me the cash for the hongkong trip, knew it would never work anyway. Stupid boy, done it before anyway. But i was psycho-ed and entirely convinced that i could turn it around this time so i asked, i was not even given the privilege of second sentence. 

i felt like i’d been shamed on the spot. 

10 over years of never talking about feelings. Never telling things about my life. Never communicating. Never sharing. They thought they held this family together well, they think i don’t know a thing about what life is. Today i know why i never tell my family anything. Today i know why i’m never home when people have family outings and go shopping with their parents. Today my feelings existed in a totally different way. 

10 things my parents didn’t know about me:

1. They don’t know i’m a DSC main comm. 

2. They don’t know that i chose to major in illustration for my diploma, that decision was ALL me. 

3. They don’t know that i’ve been teaching tuition for a month already (dad tried to ask about it after i spilled in the car but i didn’t reply)

4. I worked for a month at secret recipe but stopped turning up for work abruptly because the manager was a lazy asshole and a racist bully. All the other people working there were lazy bitches too, except for a nice filipino lady. 😀 

5. I’m in the bookstore in church, i serve there alternate weeks and am a customer service officer. They probably think that bookstore = book table still… 😀

6. I lie all the time, sometimes i tell everyone i’m going to church or watching online but i don’t do that, i watch kids central instead. Sometimes i just feel shitty about life and don’t want to go to church so i’ll say i have a flu or something and not turn up. 

7. i have a debit credit card, haha i turned it over from a normal NETS card myself and spent my entire life savings of $4000 as such

8. They didn’t know i went to take my basic driving until a week after i got the results 😀 

9. I was part of main comm for band when i was in secondary school too, they didn’t know either. 

10. Everytime my dad refuses to send me to the mrt because sends my brother to school instead i know it’s cuz he wants to save the ERP money (i wouldn’t scrimp on that if i had a kid) and it’s kinda sad for me. But i’ve learnt to shut up and give way to the golden child. 😀 

 

For such a long time i thought it didn’t matter and i thought i was stronger than anything, living my life as though i was living alone anyway. Today i hope it’s settled and i hope it really doesn’t matter anymore. I don’t want to be looked down on anymore, i’m going to read back on this post and be reminded of the feelings. I want to, because i don’t want to be the same person anymore, 18 years has been fucking hard, people around me don’t make it easier, i feel like i’m going round in circles. 

i’ve never told my dreams or hopes to anyone. Today i live for nothing more, sometimes when you’re trying to be nicer people just step on you. When i get over this i’m going for a much better lot in life, i can do it myself. 

– Issac

emo…

haha today i lost miserably in monopoly two rounds flat… hahaha it was really BAD and you think you know bad wait till you see me playing… haha…

unbelievable…

i totally do not believe that i just told my dad to wake me up earlier because i have to be in school at 11am… TO PLAY RISK!? (i mean the boardgame)… i’m off my rocker, totally and i know it… 😦 hahaha… 

accompanied amos to take pictures today, NOT FEELING INSPIRED at all… where’s all this dullness coming from? hahaha i feel boring right now…

i’m addicted to patapon and the moment i see amos with a PSP i am wrestling it OUT of his arms IMMEDIATELY. 😀 God bless the patapons 😀 

cheers

disturbia…

why is this happening? When you have absolutely nothing to do and there’s so much time but you’re NOT getting anything productive done, then you know you’ve done it… You’ve let your little poor life slide down to the dirty armpits of hell…

well, ugly betty is now taking a little longer to load so i’ve decided to blog… i woke up at 10 and the buffer speed has been quite fast till now… darn have to wait every few minutes to see what happens next…

past few weeks/months have been the most stressful and tiring months of my life, seems that i’ve been going on and on at it that when i have time to rest like NOW where there’s practically no school i just simply breakdown and die because i don’t know what to do… of course we’re always on about our ideals and how we want to work on our designs and whatever crap when we have free time… but the truth is more often than not we end up in front of a screen stoning off… i’m feeling really crappy right now… *sigh*… haha

schools been slack but i’ve still been going to school for main comm stuff and all… we’re all suffering luh, in what way is this an enriching and nurturing experience that we can learn and grow from? hahaha, thankless tasks, unwanted stresses and irritating people… we’re just a pound full of crazy-ass bitches waiting to bite each others’ heads off… haha, but we’d never admit it right… hahaha…

ugly betty stopped loading… depressed… haha…

now time for silly pictures… hahaha of course with a running commentary… 😀

eh i hope melvin doesn’t get pissed about this… haha … but this is absolutely hilarious… 😀 hahaha i had to drag him around the room to wake him up okay, give me some credit… 😀

KEZIA HAS A NICE HAIRDO… 😀 i’m a genius yes… 😀

hahaha, and since we were in the lounge and whilst they still left random stuff around the room i got happy with the ladle… hahaha

it’s chrystal’s butt by the way… 😀

who looked so cute last time!!! 😀

mummy shoes courtesy of sharleen… 😀

and a lizard we saw on the way back from the bubble tea treat… still trying to figure out how the hell clement and i ended up owing sharleen so many bubble teas… but, still cute lizard anyway…

just laugh at it cuz it’s cute… 😀 hahah

oh oh oh! i like this one! this is denise and yunxi puking after eating… hahaha welcome to the tp bulimic club… hahaha we pat each other’s backs while we puke… 😀 ahha…

donson cleaning his acrylic with a pad… 😀 hahaha…

emo sunset view from the lounge… think… Coldplay’s “Yellow” playing in the background. hahaha it’s so emo please… hahaha i’d bug kezia to sing yellow everytime we see this… 😀 hahaha

i realised that so many of my pictures are from school, hahah need to get out more… meet up with other people like meifeng and caroline and all the other people that i used to go out with… it just happens so quick when something consumes you and you have no other life anymore, i feel like i’m looking forward to nothing else except more events… there’s nothing else on my head anymore… feel like shit luh…

needs to club and let loose somehow… MOS? hahaha, needs to find back that meaning in life, or a direction, some purpose… there isn’t anymore meaning in being someone people look up to when there’s nothing to follow in that person after all…

amos calls… supposed to go shooting with him today but he woke up, very appropriately an hour later than, as i expected, the time we were supposed to meet… haha so hopefully when we walk around today i’ll get inspired or something, back to the last bit of ugly betty before i head out the door…

cheers! 😀

zonked

I’m having an outbreak. Dies… haha… i couldn’t control and squeezed two of them which were right next to each other and they eventually merged to become one big pimple. 😀 haha… poked again and squeezed all the pus out… hahaha it’s a vicious cycle luh haha… 😀 OH GAWWWDDDD… haha

Today turned out to be a good day i guess, i survived it at least… See i woke up at 5.45 am and actually managed to stay sane all day! Now that’s what you call a pro okay, customer service was crazy today, and i really would have enjoyed it more if i didn’t have so many things to worry about…

i ate like a pig today… two magnums in a row, beat that man… 😀 

first tuition today, i totally got killed at the science part luh… i didn’t know whether rubber sinks/floats so that really sucked… But english was okay, but i’ll totally make sure i know the answer before setting the questions to him first… hahaha dies…

i’m not feeling fun today. 😀 hahaha hopes for a happy week. 😀

the snooze-king

hullo hullo, i’m posting! great man, hahaha i’m finally back in front of the comp ready for a post, anyway it’s not that i don’t want to post but posting without pictures is just NOT SHIOK okay… and the AGM pictures didn’t turn out very pretty anyway so i was just waiting for a right time to post basically… 😀

haha…

anyway i want to show off my empire, everyone say hi to WIKKEL the cutest empire ever from DSC sub comm camp, haha aww i miss camp so much it was pretty fun and we were TOTALLY just getting started when it all ended… anyway here it is:

haha i love every single one eh! 😀 haha…

anyway today i went for Festival of Praise with Wyncy, Melvin and Tom… plus my cell group sitting in front luh… but technically the four of us went together… 😀 hahah anyway it was kinda interesting cuz if you think about it the four of us are the LAST group of people you’d see together on any given random day hanging out… like… UHHH… nevermind, we took cool night shots so i’mma show it off next time… 😀

Am feeling really jumbled now because despite having a damn cool muji notebook/organiser/scheduler thingy i still can’t seem to keep track of the things that i have to do such that i keep double booking myself… haha woops… looks like i have to skip this thursdays meeting already… haha…

i am going through an outbreak. 7 pimples at once is not a very nice thing, haha but i’m glad i’m too busy to have to bother about them… haha, FOP was just one crazy whirlwind of fun/work/fellowship… i should’ve served more… hahaha, but yea just anyway it was fun… 😀 hahaha but today(last day) i was quite stoned so i basically just got into my seat and stoned there whilst geri was commenting about having her “crepe” already… which i immediately interpreted as having her “crap” and i guessed it really must’ve been quite shiok for the toilet bowl… 😀 hahaha… thank God that i don’t have to bother the chicken rice uncle with orders ever again and that i don’t have to eat chicken rice ANYMORE… i know half of attributes bookstore hates me for the 3-day chicken rice marathon and the lack of 3-in-1 coffee in the store… -_- i’m totally bakoufed(random invented word, it doesn’t exist) by their high standards for welfare, we should totally get us a VIP lounge next time then… HAHA i’m not complaining, i know chicken rice for three days sucks too… hrmmph… nevermind, someone help me find that word which i’m lookin’ for…

i’m getting so so so fat, i need to get out and lose it, as such i declare a one week fast during which i will eat nothing but grass…

my brain my brain my brain… it’s totally jumbled i swear, as mentioned before this coolio muji organiser doesn’t seem to be working… HOW?!?! sei chor loh, hahaha… ohkay makes a mental note not to extensively use cantonese in my blog posts lest i receive flak for my sub no-standard in the language (RIGHT HOR, MAGDALENE?!!) hahaha… despite the mumbo jumbo i’m still quite peacefully sitting here and enjoying the peace of my room… this is a good thing, at least i’m not feeling all high strung and frustrated like i was in the toilet, i was pissed cuz the shampoo kept bombing to the floor (by this i mean crashing to the floor at exceedingly high speeds) and this happens everytime i bathe so i was so pissed my insides wanted to scream at the shampoo… but i know that it’s not the pantene’s fault so i happily threw out the cheapo follow me shampoo my mama brought from malaysia and replaced it’s place with pantene in all it’s glory… wahahaha, greatness… 😀

high strung, high strung, everyone has been really high strung these few days/weeks and stuff like that, i don’t know, maybe it’s the weather. But i find that i’ve been coming into contact with high-strung people far to often! so often that it’s abit depressing because when people get high-strung on me i feel like i’m getting scolded and everytime i feel like i’m getting scolded i just get pissed off… ah, all the high-strung people in the world should go and die. 😀 haha…

THERE ARE PEOPLE(PERSON) IN MY LIFE WHOM I THINK ARE VERY FAKE. Yea, haha just to add on the the above, fake people should be put to death too… haha, it just makes me want to die when i feel that someone is trying to befriend me just because he/she wants to make sure that he/she is friends with everyone… they will have no good end… 😀 hahaha…

How long haven’t i posted? i must make up for lost time and post alot this time round leh! hahaha but i don’t think anything interesting has been happening in my life recently… make a mental note: do something interesting… ahaha, i’m feeling abit broke, i just gave a 10 buck offering during FOP… ahaha before the offering the preacher was saying that we should not write the amount yet because we should be moved first by the sharing of the word then decide what to give… haha deep inside i was being all cyncial and catty and said to myself i’m giving 2 bucks you can try whatever ways and means to convince me but i ain’t givin’ no more… stupid issac, why are you always so stupid… hahaha i ended up giving ten bucks, go figure… hahaha… but it felt great luh, hahaha… just wanted to share how stupid i felt… 😀

melvin’s head was a big hazard today. i know this is just random but during FOP when reuben morgan from hillsong invited everyone to hang out at the front i was standing like right behind melvin. 😀 bad choice. 😀 hahaha whilst i was being all high and jumping and stuff i could distinctly see a big round patch of black in front of me… and i was extremely aware of the fact that my face could just smash into it and there’d be alot of chaos and blood… well, yea basically my main point… i don’t have a main point. nevermind.

okay here’s until i blog again sometime in the next six months 😀 hahaha

cheers,

izak

THE annual general meeting

One perk about being a part of an event but being in the main committee but also not being the overall in-charge of the entire event is… We can all go absolutely crazy with whatever we are doing. And that’s what we did yesterday, fitted up 100 over programme booklets with pop-ups and made the design space look like a lounge bar… HOW COOL ARE WE?! hahaha …

AGM was the bomb lah, i mean i haven’t have had so much fun in such a long time, not to mention we were utterly and totally just ridiculous with each other half of the time. 😀 special mention to sholleh for wearing that datuk outfit with the humOngOs rings… they were just hilarious! Anyway, i declare “ONE NIGHT IN VEGAS” the dsc AGM a success woo… with the mafia boss, sultry bar-singer, crazy managers, restaurant waitresses, datuks and tycoons, jackpot taitai’s and little ah bengs, hotel heiresses and their bodyguards and the playboy around as well… 😀 WE WERE MADDDD hahaha… oh i forgot the dealer.. yes yes we had a dealer with the very nice shiny tie, i was so jealous steven… hahaha

kezia and i were faking filipino accents all day and being really nosey poking our nose into all of the AGM business… hahaha, being really like ” I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO, GIVE ME SOMETHING TO DO CUZ I’M A FLOATER…” haha…

OKAY SO NOW I’M WAITING FOR PICTURES! PLEASE SEND! hahaha… took so many pictures yo, quite happy…

anyway, there were so many ACCION people there too! hahaha it was just a happy occasion and i don’t really suppose anyone was paying attention to the serious stuff… *aheM* ahaha, but it was all protocol so we had to do it anyway… 😀 haha, oh and serina’s performance was like FABuLoUs! hahaha… 😀 melvin was totally smitten we could tell… 😀

RESULTS FOR THE DEPOT COMPETITION COMING OUT SOON!

kungfu panda!

Ok hello hello hello, here i am back to blog about life. Okay today was quite a good day i must admit because i managed to finish my public speaking speech draft, really happy about that, plus i watched many episodes of America’s Next Top Model back to back on this really cool website that Robin gave me… AND i watched KUNGFU PANDA!!! haha i’m absolutely elated, you have no idea how happy i am that the outing went through… 😀 yay

and thanks all the understanding people for trying to cheer me up, i was in the pits, it’s not that i lost my ipod luh, it’s more of a combination of things i guess… well, i felt much better after the movie although my contacts were giving me extreme hell and the moment i got home i TORE them off… i will never buy coloured contacts again… but they’re nice… 😀 k maybe i will… haha

ANYWAY the big THING that happened today! haha i’m not calling it an event, or a situation or a happening cuz it just either sounds weird… or, it just doesn’t fall into one of those categories… haha so i’m just going to say that the big THING that happened today was that… Sholleh got mistaken for a sexual pervert. You see it was a much more innocent thing but i’m making it sound much more scandalous through my language… 😀 whaha… ok anyway, what happened was that we were all here at E!Hub getting ready for a movie and all, and we were getting food and standing outside old chang kee just standing around and stuff… and THIS GIRL! THIS GIRLIE GIRL! This not very tall with stripey shirt and short jean shorts girl! She just tapped sholleh on the shoulder and when he turned around there she was all girlie with the hand on the waist and the hand primped up and pointin’ to herself and all, and SHE SAID “Scuse’ me, did you like just touch my butt?” … I was like !@#$%^&! hahaha who the hell touches butts in Singapore little lady?

Anyway Sholleh said “no”… like straight away and appeared pissed afterward cuz he claims she ain’t that pretty and all… haha, i should have just stood there and said “OH YEAH HE DID!” and did the whole diva stare stare hands in the air “uh huh” look thingy… hahaha poor Sholleh…

Tonne of things to do… BUCK UP ISSACCC! 😀

cheers from two swollen eyes and five newly bursted pimples… 😀

NITE! 😀