urge to blog…

Okay i suddenly have the urge to be expressive because it’s 11.11pm and i have a tonne of work to do and very little time. I have so much work that i honestly believe that i cannot finish it… worrying…

Anyway, last week was quite mad with many outings fun stuff going on, plus school wasn’t so hectic so technically i was playing all week… And then there was sentosa which was really great cause we took a helluva great deal of pictures, all of which are friendster and MSN display pic worthy and are great for blogging… 😀 SO PICTURES UP NEXT POST! I DEMAND TOM, HAJAR AND LILIN TO SEND ME PHOTOS!

But since i have no pictures and nothing much exciting to post about, i shall also take time to declare on my own blog that whoever flamed Desiree on her blog… Is a childish and irritating person with no life. 😀 Like obviously since there are so many people willing to defend her it’s quite hard to believe that she’s an obnoxious person right… 😀 Yes it’s true i believe my theory wholeheartedly… 😀

Anyway today i went to register for basic theory driving with Amaris, it was a horror to have to wake up earlier, recently have been having trouble waking up on time for 12 pm classes… Augh, i’m gonna die… hahaha what if i have morning classes to come? 😀 hahaha… Maybe it’s cause of the early morning that’s why i was so lethargic in the night, went out with Shihui, Kaysee, Jialing, Fiona, Amos, David, Mark, Weijie… blah blah blah many people, little brain space… Anyway, it was quite a quiet outing cause i dunno maybe we all had early mornings… haha… Anyway i was tired and worried about my assignments… GOD HELP US!!!!

Yesterday i had alot of fun eating dinner with Fioneh, Warren, Yijie and Teresa. 😀 I declare them officially fun people. 😀 It also sparked off our sudden urge to have a Wonka Yaya outing… 😀 which is LONG overdue, i really miss hanging out with the people from my sub-empire and even though we didn’t really do alot of hanging out in the first place but now that we’re “all grown up” then we can totally go around and have so real good fun. 😀

SO, time to get off the contacts, roll up the sleeves and have a jolly good time slogging all night. 😀 Cheerios!

IZAK

today

today i felt like the world was in a whole new perspective… things were entirely new and different… clean clothes, soft bed, cool air… computer access, quiet atmospheres and nice smelling things… I’ve long put camp far behind me, though it was quite tough at times i know i learnt alot, so thanks to all who were there to make it such a cool time…

still, i have to admit i’m looking forward to school starting once again, i’ve always been such a school-hater… but having an entire holiday devoted to camps has inclined me to begin to long those long classes and chances to just leave school… haha, freedom i guess…

anyway, today headed down for sentosa feeling absolutely chirpy cuz i was clean and energized… got myself dunked and chunked there, ate ice cream three times and had simply had a fun time… Things got abit violent with the DPA design students (*wink*) but i think we all know that it’s just a joke…

i’m so so so happy about today, it felt good to not have people cheering in your ears and though i know it wasn’t a perfect day but it was fun. Seldom do you get around with a group that is able to pull you up, some people energise me and i know there are two groups 1) DOC main comm 2) Accion peeps. People who can get me screaming and laughing hysterically, yes yes, i know i’m in a good place… 😀

i want a camera. 😀

I don’t want to play alr! no more camps for now! 😀 haha…

i feel lonely in crowds

I guess if there was ever the saying, one is always more lonely in a crowd than when he is alone… It’s a case of relativity i guess…

here i am sitting in room 3-10 alone in the extreme cold with some emo music from my phone staring at the big white flag that me and the creative committee made up today… I’m so proud, hahaha it’s just hanging there on the wall but it looks as good as it would on the computer… hahaha i’m so happy, today was like the first day that most of us were in the same place working together on the same thing… i’m glad, it made me feel like things weren’t going so bad after all… my job is done, i’m free, i’m happy…

anyway back to the point about feeling lonely in crowds, FOC was a horror, felt so so tired and so so lonely as i realised that i’m just a facade, i’m not real at all, i’m just not much inside… but i don’t want to be a nothing, so it’s like back to point one again… back to those days when i wasn’t a good person inside out, back to those days when i could totally be living day by day with no goals or ambitions… hahaha

i want to go to new york…

i want to go to london… (MUMMY AHHH! haha, i hope jingwen comes back soon)

creative sucks, but we survived, i’m proud of everyone who contributed and did their best, i’m happy that they helped me to go through it… thanks to amos who encouraged me when i was feeling like i couldn’t do it… thanks to chrys who always pumped me up in her own little ways… thanks to christine who was a pain in the ass, but i still love her… thanks to minda for just being so so good… thanks to salvin&syaz&rachel&roy for their efforts and hard work..

I’m glad. 😀

Izak